Lately we have been to one of the pretty established clubs in Singapore and for some reasons, thou we are not fantasized by the club.. We still keep coming back.. Anyway it was on thur – FC & I were at the club again. For me, I’m just keen on chilling out but FC has other ideas.. He's definitely out hoping to hook on some babes.
While we were dancing, there's these 2 china gals dancing beside me. As usual – FC kept bugging me to hook up with them.. But I just didn’t care much. Not sure why, I have been not really into hooking up babes.. Thou I would love to have some gfs & some sex if that's possible.. But I just not into talking to babe.. Anyway back to the story…
Not soon enough, the older china gal comes out to me & start striking some conversation.. Soon we sort of become friends and FC seem to be very glad to see some actions or whatever that is in his mind… There’s one moment – I told him “You can have her if you want.. I not keen at all.. “ But too bad this older china gal keep coming back to me whenever I tried distance away from her.. But have to say, the younger one does look good!!!
What is wrong with me? I’m seriously not sure… I just lack that hunger to get to know some babes.. Lately parent has been hinting me that they hope to have a grandchild.. Sigh.. I would love to settle down – Provided I found the right one.. However on the other hand, I sort of concluded I would be alone for the rest of my life.. No doubts I do have quite a fair share of gals in my life.. But somehow I just don’t see myself having a stable relationship again… Guess this is Karma..Last night - I've witnessed an accident… Was a AMK ave 5 coming to a stop due to red light. Within sec, I’ve heard a bang & dragging sound on the 1st lane. (I was on the 3rd lane. The scene is… I don’t know what to say. The image – the cab dragged the biker for almost 20 over meters & he – holding his dear life on the cab bumper before coming to a stop.
Another biker & I was the only witness around. What follows was very amazing. This witness biker just start scolding the cab driver for what has been done & the injured biker – Wants us to his witness.. Man I don’t what is more imortant… The live of his or justice & insurance cliams… I didn’t bother to question the cab driver who at this time can tell his very afraid and no knowing what to do.
The moment I reach the injured driver, asked if he is ok and offered to carry him to the roadside. Still witness biker still kept on questioning the driver & analysing how fast the cab was at before the impact.. Strangely enough, a off duty TP drive pass the scene and start doing questioning and what the hell is happening. 1st word he told me is I can go 1st but leave down my contacts for future assistance…. MAN… As an officer, shouldn’t he call for backup & start checking on the injured biker?
Soon I realized there’s any debris lying around the main road.. So I consulted the off duty officer and start clearly the road.. In case another accident.. But still glad the biker is alright & ask him if he want to call his family..
Since I only saw the impact at the mid of collision.. TP feel I’m not require as another biker cliamed to see the entire accident.. To me.. He bullshit.. He stop and park beside me & the start of impact is almost 20 meters behind us.. What the hell is he looking behind us..
Anyway I find Singaporean really one kind. When things happen, all they care to do are those not that critical.. Don’t even bother to check the injure biker. There’s another cab driver even stopped by & be kapo.. Start talking about his past experiences & keep going on & on..
Finally, My tour of duty has over. Tonight will be the last nite in Austin - City of Music. Lately everyone has been asking me how I find it over here & so on & so for. Frankly speaking.. Find that I’ve learned a lot about myself during this 2 years stint that I did on my entire life. These are what I’ve learned so far.
I’ve realized that….:
Actually there’s still more. But no point kept going on. The main thing is. I’ve changed. A lot. Hopefully for the good & will keep on improving. Thou stay here has not bring me much joy or laughter. It did changed me & really glad that Austin has been part of my life before.
Might never have a chance to comeback again. But I’ve no regrets. Goodbye Austin. On my farewell note, will use the famous Austin slogan..
Saw this post by Sexual Innuendo makes me recall what happened & been thru 2 years back. I was on my way to State at that time & just got into the relationship with E... The feelings at that moment were very mixed.. Confuse, afraid, worries are some of the feelings I had.
I still remb the last few min before I boarded the plane & we were exchanged sms. Her last sms is, "Why does all these has to happen to us? Why do we gotto know each other that late? Hope you do well there & pls take care of yrself..."
On that moment, I felt like unboard the plane, take the shortest time to & be with her.. But alas we are not in those love drama series where this would actually happen.. So off I flew to State where I transit @ Japan.. Moment I touched down, drop her a call & all she do is kept crying.. I felt so hurt.. Felt I done a very bad mistake for leaving her.. & she right, why do I wanna leave? So many whys & little answer to offer..
After leaving Japan, touching down @ Chicago.. Again I called her once I'm able to do that.. Again she cried.. Alot & all I could do are sweet-talking her over the phone so that she will feel better.. But soon our long-distance relationship only last not more than 2 months.. It very sad.. One gotto follow what his brian said while his heart is @ hometown.. No.. He left his heart & soul to someone else.. & now becos of the stupid $ & career, he lost his most beloved one in his life..
For ladies, man.. I mean all men in the world hate when he can't do anything nothing but.... just listen - & keep quiet thru out the whole situation.. In agony.. That man for you.. I remb a phrase very clearly that goes - Being woman are tough.. She needs to know when or what can be said or not. Being men are even as tough.. He needs to know what should he do or not.. No one is tougher than others.. It all the same.. There I was, made her cried so badly.. But nothing I can do or offer her.. The crying, the complains, the sadness & phone calls.. It still sounded so fresh in my mind as it just happened yesterday..
So what has happened between E & me? She’s gone.. Far far away.. I can sense that.. She no longer the gal that once love me as deeply as before.. But she's still as ever in my heart - forever.. Maybe no one will ever able to replace her.. I donno & don care anymore.. Cos I’ve tried before.. Tried very hard to forget her.. but failed.. That’s the meaning of life.. Only when one falls will he understand what is pain.
Sexual Innuendo - Even though we are in the diff position as you are at the moment, I can totally understand what you are going thru... But guess you can be glad that she only going to Indo.. for couple of months.. However if you 2 are very committed to each other.. Then you 2 will become a better couple after this..
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We can consider him for the team member position.
Maybe about $3,500. Is he prepared to consider?"
> Having working in one of the biggest firm & hostsFrankly speaking I feel very disgust and angry on such comment. Have I been wasting my time for the past couple of years? Or thou my career seem to be progressing.. Somehow in actual fact it has been going nowhere... Firstly I hate that company eversince I got to know them. But since I looking for jobs - Won't mind hearing what they gotto say. But such remarks from them has blew me off totally.
> one of the biggest private network in
> the world. Our DC in Austin which I managing hosts 50 over
> firewalls & IDS. On top of that - my team handles all
> security & risk management issues globally for both
> Oracle & its clients - Their comments does not justify
> what I've been doing also doing a dis-services to my employer
> - O..
I am starting to think that I’ve developed lack-of-sex-lunatic symptoms. Why? Lately I’ve been hanging out few P & all I can think of is sex.. WTF is wrong with me????
I used to be let-the-flow,-flows or if-it-happens-it-will-happen guy. Sex has always not in my part of any previous dates at all. But for some reason I kept thinking of it. & it driving me crazy.
Guys who has the symptoms as I do – I’m telling you, your date knows & they can feel it!!. Not that I knows ladies very well but ladies are very sensitive on such stuff. Any solutions for me ladies???
Look at the screen capture on the left - One of it is "edu.sg" that has been coming over here almost everyday???? Is that SG gov?? Doesn't look like it.. But if it is, don sue me hor? I very loyal to SG hor.. I didn't make any racisim comment leh.. Everyone I know has commented that I very friendly & has friends across the board leh...
Recently one of the famous Singaporean blogger (X) got herself into some troubles while commenting about her personal views & stuffs that happened during her trip to KL.. Of course if most people would know, human language at times misled others to other meanings.. Soon, everyone start commenting that she’s insulting friends up north, racists, immature enough & blar blar blar. On her defense – All she did is commenting personal views on this trip of hers.. Another blogger who actually started a blog & vent his anger on other races in SG - Especially those from other countries and here for work. His blog sitename & self-declare that he is racists & hate those who works here..
If you are reading this – take a step back & start reflecting yourself for a moment & ask this. What is right or wrong in this definition? If you ask most folks out in the streets, they will say something like “It means something that is wrong things to do. Example like rapes & etc.” Checked on dictionary will says “Appropriate for a condition or occasion”. For me – It very similar to what it says in the dictionary but says “Appropriate for a condition or occasion for the mass majority”
There’s a slide diff meanings between mine & on the dictionary. Dictionary says an appropriate actions or conditions based on situations. Mine plus mass majority – human being. If you have reflects & truly understand the histories of human - Our views changed thru-out period of times & some of the older views or so call it right thing to do in older days are very wrong in present. One very big example is man allows having multiple wives in older days. So if that the case – Are our forefathers wrong? There's so many stuffs I don't agree with others but I never tried to change their view but share mine instead. Alots of american view that what we are doing is right should be applied to theirs.. When they asked how I view it? All I said is, " no one is right or wrong. It just matter of what is the best decisions for your situation & apparently your gov works diff than us - but doesn't means we are better.. It just suit us more."
To me, it depends on where & what are the views from mass public. If you do some out of ordinary – At first people can’t accept it. But sooner or later others will start to agree & say it the right thing to do. Everyone has a different level of acceptances gauge & see views or comment in different ways. So some say X is racist for making comments on KL. Some says she just been bitchy. So you mean you have such a talent that able to see thru someone just by her few comments? Rrrrrrrrright!!.. We need more people like this in the world so that we have world peace..
Sorry I been abit bitchy :P. For those people out there, don’t you think have pre-judge someone abit too fast? I mean right she or he made some comments that is hurtful. But who knows, her lack of England powder like me is the reason that miss-code? Even thou she/he really meant that but hey – You can’t make everyone happy in this world – right? So why bother to force someone to change his/her views on something?
Haven’t been trying much lately.. Well - it almost month that I didn't try anything about my life. Just abit re-cap what is going on this couple of weeks..
2 weeks ago weekend – One of my personal friends cum ex-colleague was in town & came over Austin for a visit. So me as hosts, bring him to couple of places in town. First stop we headed to is – Stripclub. Yes!!! For him.. Not me thou.. I not into pay to have accompany.. Know what I mean?
Anyway this friend of mine – B. Has been talking about it even before he came over here. So we headed to 2 stripclubs on his first night in Austin. I could tell his balls almost blew off when the ladies there gave him that look & those erotic dances.. ;)
Recently my colleague & I happen to talk about this topic recently.. He’s an Irish & like me – both of us came to State & work almost at the same time. There’s was a period of time me thinking of giving up Singapore Citizenship & opt for State. Guess my current situation will be a lot easy since I working for a big firm in State & using my company connections on obtaining one should be a pretty easy.
However after staying here for so long & weighting the pro & cons – I felt that I would never be a true American at any point of time. Maybe in future.. But definitely not in near future… Also I’ve seem to love Singapore a lot more ever since leaving that nanny state.
9 August - Today is the day where all my countrymen comes together & celebrate our 40th Birthday. Today is the day where 60 years ago where US drop "Fat Man" to Japan where it ended WWII.. Today is the day where I couldn't sleep again.. Kaoz..
Anyway it great to see our nation has growth from strength to strength & starting to hear lots of good comments about our country (& bad as well) from American on the streets. You be surprise – I mean really surprise that how they wish their government follows the model of ours.. Whatever it is, Hope we will have another many many times 40 years of Nation celebrations on going.
Oh ya - Presidential election is round the corner & hopefully there’s a walkover again this time. :P No don’t get me wrong that I pro-PAP or anything that you can link me with, okie??.. The main reason on why I wish that is - I lazy to vote as it is still quite troublesome for oversea Singaporean like me to vote. Hee
Ok back to serious note – Frankly speaking, unless our country is to be declared as Martial Law state, it doesn’t make much different who is the president of Singapore. Sorry for saying that & again not trying to put down our president. The only power he/she has is veto power. Which still has to be agreed upon by his board of advisor. That why for those who served or still serving the army, the pledge goes something like loyal to the country & President of Singapore. (I think but sorry if I’m wrong).
Again I might be wrong so sorry for the wrong info - During the Martial law state – The whole parliament will be denounced & the 3 Armed forces will be directly in-command & report to the president.. That why as I say, it doesn’t makes much different who the number one man in Singapore.
The main reason why I feel our current president deserve to be our president once again is due to the fact I dare to say many of so called patriot Singaporean might not have a clue of it – In 1974, Singapore was under terrorists attack by the Japanese Red Army. And in order to save the civilian or causing more anymore damage to civilian structure, President Nathan volunteered to be taken as hostage & follow them all the way to Yemen – In exchanged for the safety of all Singaporeans. Just on this fact – I fully feel he deserved to be president for how many people in this world would be so self-less on his/her own safety?
No – I’ve no relatives on any accounts of my memories who are involved in that incident. And no I not Pro-gov. I believe in what Deng XiaoPing once said – As long it catches mice, I do not care whether it a black or white cat.
Called mum last night on checking her if she alright.. Again she as usual - voice sound like on the verge of crying.. Later did I know that one of my Uncle(Mum's bro) past away.. My mum comes from a big family & my guess this uncle of mine should be around 70-80 ages of years..
It very sad to hear such tone from your love one... Especially when you are thousand of miles away & you can't don anything.. I can hear her sadness & really really miss me.. I miss her alot too - Especially home cook food and the warmness TLC that you could get from your mum.. Chat with J about this & also let him know that I kinda decided to quit if my Boss is unable to work things out for me. Guess what he offered me after that? Sure you will not guess it –
Ask if I would like him to attend the wake on my behalf. I was totally surprise & really thank for his gesture – Especially when someone offered it without you asking.. In the end I agreed to it. Not because I wanted to show those group of uncles & aunts that my mum has a filial son. I sort of guess that my mum will be abit glad to see her son for doing such gesture even while he’s at oversea. Well that my belief.. Hopefully it comes true..
2nd – He urge me come back ASAP and saying that will “yang wo” till I find a job… Really god, think you have given me someone that I will never trade for.. I don’t know about how you feel – But I always strongly feel those great pals are always very very hard to come by.. I’ve friends who are so “chee hong” that they will totally MIA for x period of time till their loves one are gone.. I never do that I always felt that pals are for life & should always appreciate their existence no matter where, how or when…
Speaking of love one – My ex E, has been a pain in the ass.. She has been blowing hot & cold all these while & keep flip flop her comments and stands… I still love her very much & really wish to have her by my side.. But looking at how things goes, things will not change much even thou I back in SG.. Anyway I kinda figure out on giving up true love anymore..
Suppose to write Miss K.. Part 3.. But with so many happening going on around me.. Not really in the mood to write.. Will try to write it over the weekend.. & oh ya.. EPL is on again!! Going downtown to catch the match this Sunday.. See you
Wokeup the next day, drop her a sms & we kinda decided to me for dinner.. She wasn’t that cute than I saw her @ clubs.. Well you know.. Always give some discounts on babes that you think she is @ clubs.. :P Anyway we headed off to Bugis for a Jap restaurant which she suggested (Hey, I not in town for so long.. so can consider a tourist mah.. Of course locals have to decide. :P)
After dinner, we had some coffee @ one of the Mac & chat for quiet abit.. I was about to head MS to meetup with my bro for his birthday party.. I did ask if she wanna join along & maybe it would be fun which she agreed to it. So go we went to MS had a pretty decent nite together.. We danced, drink, chated & joked thru-out the nite..
Soon my brother is dead drunk & head home without me knowing it. So it left K & myself all by ourselves @ the club – Wondering what should we do next.. What I did next was something very daring & never.. I Swear hor.. I never did it before.. I query if she wanna spent a nite @ my places.. Now parents are at home.. – No wait. My whole family is @ home… Am I nuts or what? Not really.. Well my thoughts was we had a good time & sadly to say I be leaving in couple of days time. So just wanna spent & enjoying more time with her.. that all. She was kinda hesitate initially & did gave me a dirty look. But after explaining what is actually all about – She agreed. Anyway it the time of the month.. Could’t do much at all, right?
So in the end, we spent the whole night & the whole next day together – In my room. Chatting & sharing our past. It around this time, she shared this with me. At first she thought that our dinner date will going to be a super short one. Presumed she going to see thru me totally inside outside within couple of hours. Not very sure what she meant thou.. But after spending couple of hours together, she still couldn’t really figure about still find & me me intriguing. And when I proposed to head for my place after clubs, she agrees to it due to the fact that she still wanna know me more & thinking that if I looking for that, then tough luck as her aunt is here for visit. I was kinda falter & at the same time lost – Couldn’t see thru me after couple of hours.. Is that a compliment or am I such a mystery or what?
Anyway later that night, we went to some KTV with J & gang reached home @ late night.. That’s how we spent our 1st 2 days together. Part 3 will be here soon.. If I’ve bore you – I’m so but then……… sorry lor.. ;)
Just finished the interview a while ago & it was pretty casual than I expected or used to have.. But have to say – I kinda like the manager who conducted the interview. Straight to the point and show decent respect on me. I guess my current working env is couple of times bigger than what he has to offer and don’t’ see a need to test on my technical skill since I’m working for one of the biggest firm in the IT sector.
This happened @ around 26th Sept 2004.. Can’t really recall the exact date but pretty sure I got it right. Got to know this sweet, cute & charming lady @ Devils… Infact how we get to know each other is really really out of the blue.
It was on the 8th of Sept when we first met. The very time our eyes locked on each other when she was @ the bar top while I was just couple of sits away from her. It started off when J knocked me & said that a gal is checking on me. So when I turned my view towards her, our eyes met & start giving each other friendly smile. But nothing happens after that.
Thou J kept pestering me to go out & say hi to her – I was kinda reluctant to do so. Not sure why… Anyway after 1 2 hours later, I’m still at the same spot while she was just afew steps away from me.. & thru out the nites, we were stealing glances at each other but none of us did not pick it up from there.. But I was very glad that I didn’t make another move.. Reasons for that – Her so call BF was there at that freaking nite!! There’s been one moment where she was hugging her bf while I was just standing beside them (behind her bf) & she actually holds my hand while hugging that poor chap..
That moment – I was kinda lost. Asking & thinking myself – “WTF does this means??!!?” Anyway soon after we decided to call a nite & while I was on my way out & walked past by her – She raised her glass as if trying to give me a toast. Actually it means goodbye. So out I went out & again J saw it. Asking & nabei-ing me the whole nite saying stuffs like no balls & etc for not making any moves.. J
Next time I saw her was 18th Sept where we were kinda celebrating my early birthday @ devils again. Again I saw her – At the same spot from a distance. & again I did not make any moves.. Guess I was kinda turnoff by the holding hands incident.
On the 22nd of Sept, we met again – Same spot, location & time. This time round I was kinda determine not making any moves on her. She has a bf & I don’t really see a reason to get myself into some triangle relationship.
At around past midnight, one of my gfs needs to pee & I offer to accompany her. K saw me walking towards the gents/ladies direction. Next thing she did is – Excuse herself away from her bf & dash towards me ask for my number. Knowing that I be leaving in exactly a week time, I see no harm getting to know someone. & hey – I leaving soon so if something nasty comes out, I be thousand miles away!! :P (Am I a jerk or not??).
We did sms thru-out the nite after that & things just got better after that. Kinda late now.. Will continue tomorrow. Sweet dreams guys..
Everyone needs a soul mate where he can pour all his sorrow, happiness & kinky stuff to share with. After living in this crazy world for almost 29 years, I’ve finally found my one-true-soul-mate in the lifetime. His is Mr. J.
We kickoff & hit off very well on this one-true-friendship from one of the seminar during our previous job. Infact I still remb clearly how we start this relationship. He’s the one who come out to me & said, “ Are you working for N?”.. Have to say; I didn’t notice him at all… Hey I’m a guy, ok? :P
Since then, credit to him, I start clubbing. Due to him, I start to have an exciting lifestyle.. Well not really but still is.. He love ManU… & my love is Arsenal.. We always shoot at others on each other fav clubs on every chance we have. I love the every moment time spent together.. Love the time we go clubbing – Just 2 of us. Every clubs outing, he will always said this thru-out the night – “ Do your work leh!!?” That means go & sian some babes leh.. Everytime we will nabei here & there about comments we made. Time with him always seems to be flies very fast & I always enjoy every moment we had.
When I’m feeling down, he always there for me. When I need I need someone to go for drinking, he never fail to respond to my recall manning. He never fail to make sure I home safely & F me up down left right the next day when I got freaking drunk.. He never failed to cover my ass when I almost got caught for cheating on my ex-wife.. You tell me, where to get such deal? He once & always said this to me – Maybe we can together check in together to the hotel room with our fuck buddy. Save $$ mah.. He’s the one who offer me my greatest fantasy – 3somes & I reject him.. He never failed to got me real drunk & still F me the next day.. he also never fail to share all his exciting stories to me in such details... He’s Mr J.
Been MIA for almost a month.. It has been a quite a busy weeks for me lately – Both work & personal. Again I was assigned to couple of projects & me been a Virgo, has the habit on want to get things done the best of it.
Anyway I’m not here today to discuss on my work. Personally there’s couple of things bothering me… 1st is my family.. Especially my mum… Well she hasn’t been doing & taking that well ever since I’ve left to State.. Though she never said this before, but everyone knows she dotes me the most among my siblings.. She had suffered a lot for me ever since I was born & me too love my mum a lot.. If not for her, I won’t be here today typing these words..
Recently mum has been calling me a lot.. Although she sound as usual… Calling to check things out on my side.. & every time I would say everything is doing great on my side… Even though I in some deep shit, wouldn’t wanna let her worry for me. She has been worried for me for so many donkeys’ years.. Beside I personally feel mature enough to handle whatever issues come to my lap..
Couple of days ago she called again.. Initially she sound fine & was telling me about sending $$ to her account instead of my bro.. Right after that, she started telling me what kind of shit my bro has been up to &…. Started crying.. Saying stuffs like “ You all are my sons.. Feel so hurt to see you guys doing such things”… At that moment.. I felt my heartaches.. Very aching.. Then she mentioned that that stuff (If you know what I mean) has come back recently to haunt her again.. The last time it happens was about 2 years back & she has not been mentality that stable ever since. Well depends on your level of acceptance, I would rather believe her that she been haunted by that stuff then sending her to a Mental Hospi..
I’ve let her continue her stories for about 10 min before me saying or making any comments.. Told her that she think too much.. True we are her sons & of course it hurting to see your child doing something against law of human moral.. But think again, this is life which is not as simple as math where 1 + 1 = 2.. Sometime you just don’t get what you deserved.. If you know done your best & things still doesn’t work out as planned – Then sorry to say too bad but hey, you gave your very best effort & that the most important of all.. (well that’s for me!!) Beside you give us life & now we are – Grownup man. We decided our path & live that we want to be. You can’t decide or help us forever – Neither can we do that for you too.. You know you gave your best & I know you gave your all effort possible. That good enough & grateful for me to have such a mum like you.
Ok, the last sentence – I didn’t said that to her.. But I hope she knows that. To be frank & if there’s such things like karma & god, I would pray to have her as my mum again or me been her parent to repay her what she given me. I know in this life, I can’t repay & never had been a filial son enough.. Hope god would give me another chance to give her back something to her.
After the conversation, it really kept me thinking of going back.. The feeling of unable to do anything while we are couple thousands miles apart is really annoying.. All I could do is get my pal J, to buy some Chicken ginseng (Is that what you call? Cant remb..) & Sent it to her on my behalf. Hope this will cheer her up – abit…
This year alone, I’ve been thinking of going back. The idea of heading back home is always around my mind.. But the urge has never been so strong.. My initial plans are to go back next year.. But maybe I will ask for a special request from my company to work from Singapore temp.. You know work from home…
Though I’ve ever though such situation before but was hoping it will never happened to me – I would really hate & kill myself if one fine great day, my parents passed away while I not with them at the death-bed… I heard one of my colleague have this experienced before & he regret it totally.. I jolly know I will be too & was praying this would never happened to me. But have to say, although I afraid such incident will happen; I’ve never done anything about it.. Typical Singaporean.. For those who might not know, it is very hard decision for me to come State. Afraid that I might fail badly or even survived in this alien country.. But to think of going back Singapore – I freaking scare.. Sorry, have no idea how am I going to explain this to you.. Maybe you will understand my feeling if you are in the same shoe as I am.
Yes I admit, I actually using this excuse right now to bring my ass back home.. Cos never once did I enjoy my stay here.. No offense to American. No I never regret coming over here.. But State is just not for me.. Different cultures, way of lives & etc….
But have to say, now be really a bad timing.. Just joined this new dept not very long. (Coming to 5 months to be exact) & only recently I just started to prove my worth in the group.. & beside I didn’t manage to have much saving after been here for so long & really was hoping to save up abit before going back… Then again – there will or might never be a good timing.. I donno.. Really lost over here.. On one side – I’m trying to be professional enough not to let it affect my work (Which I think I did pretty decent enough) & on another hand, kept thinking what should I do? Any advise for me?
My performance review is this coming Thursday & somehow I believe it not going to be a good one. Firstly I just joined this group. 2nd, based on the recent comments from my so call manager – She has been praising about my work only these couple of weeks or past 1 month.. The review is going to be conducted by my senior director & still considering of bringing it up this matter to her.. Sigh.. I once said this over my MSN – “Who the Fuck invent $$$?!!??” To me, $$ is the root cause of all good & evil.. Anyway… I’m praying my review will at very least decent one.. Then maybe it will be easier for me to ask any request in returns.. Pray for me guys..
What is your biggest sex fantasy? Well for most guys I would say is having threesome with another 2 babes.. So how many of you out there were able to fulfill it? You know, last year I was given an opportunity to fulfill my biggest fantasy. However I choose to decline the offer. Why?? Hold on, sit back & enjoy my share of story…
Got to know this gal C just right before I was about to leave SG. Given the time constraint & busy on another babe.. We didn’t do any further other than hanky panky & bit of kissing… Before I left SG, intro C to my best pal J & soon both of them got hooked up together which I fully expected. Anyway I wasn’t really into her.. Let say she will be not my 1st priority if I want some actions..
True enough C & J started to become underground lover & J has been sharing all their bed experience to me. Have to say, I always never failed to have a good laugh about their encounter & actions in bed. She kinda… psycho.. Will talked about it next time. J once asked C if she interested to have threesome – Which she very keen on it. & of course for a lady, she would prefer to have 2 guys & C herself. So J recommended me!! Her response – Silent…
After couple of months, I came back to SG for a short break… During that time even though I have no gf or fuck buddy in particular, somehow I no lack of bed actions during my short break.. Again I not charming okie!!! Only reason I could think of is – Maybe due to the fact that I had a chance to work oversea, my views, & feelings given to others are abit refreshing.. Unlike typical Singaporean.. :P BTW - those comments are from a gf of mine..
Anyway it during one of those nights we are out clubbing where C, J & couple of others were around.. J asked me if I keen to give a good on that threesome proposal.. Infact he has been telling & asking me couple of times during our long distance conversations & I always take it as a joke. That night he sound freaking serious & asked me to consider it. My answer to that is HELL NO!!!.. Why? My replied is “If 2 babes & me myself, I will definitely jumped into!!! Now are 2 guys sharing 1 gal?? Siao Bo!!! Beside I don’t wanna see your freaking DICK!!! You nabei!!!$%^&*(”
J responded “I asked you cos you my best pal, okie?” Nabei.. Can give me a better lobang than this anot!!! In the end I brushed him off & recommend another friend of ours – F. Cos I know may never had sex before. (I think..) In the end we didn’t talked much further about it.
After I went back State & one night, J told me that C, F & J himself had a threesome liao.. You know, I was laughing like hell & really can’t believe they really did that. Some more with F!!!!??!?! Well F has about the size of Mosses Lim.. If I were there that night.. I will puke… Some more get to see my pal dick sticking into C… Think I going to puke again…
Life in State is pretty much bore - Especially in Texas. Countryside or cowboy town lifestyle (so to speak), super layback, slows pace compare to what it is in Singapore, it very different to the environment that I’ve grown up from. So most of the excite stories I could shared is my past….
Someone brought up something that reminds me that I’ve once – Because of a vow I made, I’ve flew half the globe back home for her… She doesn’t have a great personality or intelligent that attracts me so much. But she always never fails to let me feel so relax & most of all – So grateful that I got to know her in this lifespan. However our time together was pretty short one.
She flew over here last year where we spent 2 months of our lifetime with each other. That was one of the happiest moments in my entire life & it goes for her as well. We spent time together on shopping, checking out various town & cities, cook dinner, cuddle each other & many many others more.. On the last night in Texas where she’s due to fly back to Singapore – I bought a small chocolate cake & I said “Not sure when we are going to meet again & definitely wont know if I can be there for your birthday. So here I am, Happy early birthday…” She cried on the very moment she saw it. At that moment, I vow to her that no matter how tough it going to be, will try my very best to be back for her birthday.
Well, somehow I manage to pull off this stunt of mine. Got a whole month approval from management – Be back in SG & work from home (It pretty common in State to work from home) – So that I can be just in time for her birthday & also mine. Our birthday are only 13 days away each other you see… I was thrilled about coming back!!! Thinking of catching up pals & family, playing soccer again & of course able to see her makes me very excite about this trip.
But when I got the approval & bought tickets, settle everything I need to do before I fly back – She’s no longer there for me. Found someone who she believe suit more to her.. I was very sad. Totally not in the mood to work… Soon my live suffers a lot. Gotto drink every night in order to fall asleep. Not in the mood to meet another else beside work. Every day & night, I would just go out for work only & back home.
When the day came for me to take the fateful flight & back to SG.. My heart was heavy… Am I doing the right thing here? Why would I want to comeback now since she no longer there for me? Would she come to the airport & fetch me? Would we still get to spend time together on her birthday? In the end, I decided that it doesn’t matter whether it right or not to comeback due to the vow or will she still be there for me… I felt that it something can be done on my part & will do it.
When I was back for that 1 whole month – True enough we didn’t spent our birthdays together.. Yes I sad that’s how I been treated. But then I realized that at times, for all the effort we gave, doesn’t always get to see the result we desired. That saddens & beauty of life.
On Friday night, went out to a clubs after my super long day of work. Yes, 116 hours nonstop of works & preparation for just 1 or 2 hours of actual work. Those who in the IT line would surely know what I mean. Especially you are working on one of the critical devices like choke router or Firewall – Where all connections passes thru it all day long.
Anyway I only managed to get off work @ around 1am local time & I decided to hit down the clubs with my colleague. Frankly speaking, although I really a big time party animal in SG, I never enjoy the nightlife in Texas. And that night was my first time out drinking for almost 8 months. By the way, the club is known as Sherlock if you are interested to know.
There are 3 sections in the club – Pool section, chill out & a diner. There’s live band @ the diner section. It wasn’t that crowded & the whole place wasn’t really packed with babes.. Anyway most American ladies are big in size. For somehow, this was the 1st time seeing others trying so hard picking up babes.. Man I’m telling you – How guys picking up ladies back home aren’t nothing compare here. Here, even if you manage to hook up a gal, there still very high possibility that she good hooked up by another guy right in front of you!! Guys just push their way in & try some pickup lines & start flirting with the gal. It something that not very going to happen in SG. But here is like a normality. Everyone does that & no one seems to mind. Gosh if this same scenario is happening to be in SG & somehow the victim guy is Ah Beng alike - You are in for big brawl.
Bought a new car recently – A Ford Mustang!!! For those who doesn’t know, it consider one of the America legend cars. Sporty look, v6 engine, 3.8 & damm fast!!. And it merely cost me 8.5k USD for a 2002 model. Have to say, I’ve set my eyes on her eversince I came to State.
Being driving around for the past week & I love every inch of it. Somehow I started to wonder how much would it cost if it is availablity in Singapore? I bet it going to be around 100k to 200k range plus COE. So why the Fxxk are we paying so much in Singapore while it only cost around 20-30k USD in State? Well as usual, Tax & etc imposed by Singapore GOV add up all the sums to it.
No wonder so many of my countrymen always view State is one of the best place to live @ in this world. In a way, it’s quite true. There are some plus points that some people would do anything to come over here. I was one of them. But I purely came due to career enhancement point of view. State Defense department is the one who create Internet. Here, most of the latest technologies are invented & first one to use before anyone else would have chance to get a feel of it. Beside, it pays more & surely should benefit me a lot both work & personally when one day I decided to move back to Singapore. Moreover everyone knows that State GOV would support you if you are out of job.. Yes, giving you hard cold cash every month!!
However personally I find Singapore has a lot of plus points that I will never trade my red password for anything. (I going to get lots of hate mail very soon!!). Why? Let me try to bring you all to the same page.. BTW, I only here for less than 2 years & may not totally know all the pros & cons. Also different state has different laws & governing. So please do not use this as a guideline as what I going to say are based on my personal view.
Firstly, Based on the State I’m located (Texas) & pay scale, about 30-40% of my pay is taken away to Federal GOV & Social Security. If you are in certain state, there will be State tax on top of it as well. In Singapore, the most you gonno be tax is around 10-20%. Frankly speaking, I not even sure because I yet to pay any tax in Singapore due to National Services & etc.
So since you are paying so much tax, shouldn’t you be enjoying a lot of benefits? Well as far as I know, Medical fees over here is really a joke. Seeing a doctor for say a flu might cost you at least 100 buck per visit. Singapore – 20 to 30 SGD. I heard story that doctor might turn you away if you don’t have a medical insurance. Not sure if it true. Going out for dinner would cost about 20 USD per person & you gotto topup another 10-20% of tips. Singapore – There food court & would cost around 5 SGD.
Or there are some of the plus point here like - In Texas, education is free till high school. In Singapore – it does cost abit but not that much. Petrol here is damm cheap compare to Singapore. Cars of course is way lot cheaper or compare with as well. Just wonder how much would it cost if your car headlight is damaged? Well I had a crash once & sent it for repair. Total bill just for the headlight – 600USD.
Here a lot of the American couldn’t afford a house. In Singapore, most of us can afford a house. Thanks to our CPF, a lot of us are forced to make a saving when it most needed. In State, it opt & it does not promise a return cost all the $$ are put into stocks. My point here is – I pay so much tax every month, where all the fxxking $$ gone to? Road quality & planning is suck big time. Almost no public transport existence here on most of the Cities around. No medical benefit from GOV. Strange… In Singapore, tax is so low, still enjoy low medical rate, cheap good public transport, & most of all – A very very safe city.
One thing I only start to love Singapore that you can’t find anywhere is – safe. Over here everyone can have a gun & who knows, you might have your head pointed by a gun one day. Scam in Singapore is pretty rare as most of them would not last long as our police work efficiency is damm good.
Yes Singapore is a nanny State & we have lots of restriction here. There’s a old saying by a great ancient chinese – Men by nature are evil, who needs a system to be in control. Still whatever how bad Singapore is, nowhere is good as home.
Hi,
These past 5mths was one of the happiest days for me in a very long time. I really do love you & truly wish that we could be together forever… Everything was so beautiful & nicely layout for us. We were looking for a new love nest for us. Both of us were looking forward to get ROM in Vegas @ 18 May 2005. Both of us couldn’t wait to lay hands on each other.. I couldn’t believe such a luck God would give me after been a jerk for so long…
Never did I expect things change so dramatically since my trip back SG for only 1 week. We start having doubts on each other. & now – Just within few days after we are officially off… You found a new love. To add salt onto the wound, that new love is the banker who actually was working on our loan application. & now it seem that he going to be the guy you are going to marry eventually – Instead of me. Where my name will be taken off from the love nest & have him in there instead.. Co-loan application will be his instead of me…
Now you wish me to understand & accept the fact. No, I sorry - Infact you insist me to take all these to my throat & take it without any questions ask plus taking you as friend from now on. Within afew days? I commented that you are selfish. Way too selfish.. & please stop trying to use your sale talk & convince me that what ever is in your mind is correct – I’m wrong. I’m sorry, I not sure how long will I take to accept this but I do know that if you keep doing that, I will become very hateful towards you.
Ever keep humping for hours till your partner, who is totally drained, came numerous time & you still yet no where near of cumming? Well I did.. Once ever – That all. Sorry I’m not sure how I did it but it surely one hell of experience as personal humping record still stand to this day.
It was one of the nite at clubs however that day is somehow special.. Cos it my 26th birthday & we a group of guys were drinking like hell. & Obviously I’m the central of attraction.. I always do. :P Don’t get it wrong that I’m brad Pit look-alike or what. No I don’t think I’m dead god handsome.. But I do believe I have some sort of charms, which do attracts bees to the honey.. Remember I got pickup by a babe on my very first night of my clubbing career.. But that another story...
Anyway we were drinking like hell & I was kind of high or almost half drunk even before midnight.. In between that I managed to pickup a babe @ this once our fav hangout places – ChinaJump... (Man, I freaking miss the place so much..) Soon enough 2 of us proceed to hotel for our personal activities after me as birthday boy, MIA away from the rest of the wolfpack.. Hey a man gotto do what a man gotto do, right?
Remember it was only 1am that night when we checked into the love room where we start having some actions very quick.. Although I can’t really recalled the foreplay or how I talked her thru to join me for some hanky panky session.. But I still recalled that I keep humping her non-stop for 2 hours till begged me that she really tired & need to go.. So we stopped for a short break while she went for a quick shower & I kinda trying to catch some sleep..
30 minutes or so later.. She woke me up saying she needs to go (She married you see). I was still nude at this point - Put her back to bed & our 2nd half session kicks off. Again another 2 hours I yet to cum for the whole freaking night. She was enjoying every minute & thrust I gave. I’m that kind of person who like it hard & fast if you know what I mean.. So think about it.. 4 hours of nonstop thrusting.. That was amazing.. Till this date I still unable to re-provide such form again... I know at times it took me 2 hours to cum.. But 4 hours in total & nowhere near of feeling shagged or exploded? Wish I had the formula to this lost art of sex...
Only possible reason is I’m really high that night & beers is the cause of this. But then I did tried again still nowhere close... Anyone knows why? Oh BTW.. I must have gave her a hell of good time that she called me couple of hours later & wanna meet again for.. You make the guess :)
Everyone has his or her first time.. Remember where both are so inexperience, fear & not knowing what is the correct SOP? Same for mine first and it was one of the best I ever had. Not the fact that I fully understand the SOP & spent countless hours studying on the book Sex of dummy (If there such a book.)
It 8 years back when my then gf & me were having of the really really heavy petting session.. BTW we are on my parent’s bed. Don’t ask why cos I’ve no clue till this date. Anyway back to the story – Both of us are so aroused by the foreplay where I couldn’t take it anymore.
She wasn’t really prepared for the whole course meal. What I did & promised her that I will just placed my tool right outside her tied & juicy virginal where she agreed. All I did on the first few minutes was just popping her tied virginal & rubbing with it. She was moaning & enjoying every moment of it. So do I..
As time goes, I started to become more darling.. The pace freq of rubbing & popping start to become more faster & harder… & of cos she started to enjoy even more & begged me not to stop or slow down. Out of sudden stroke, my tool is in her completely & both of us were surprised & movement stopped out of sudden after it in. She felt bit of pain while I’m was worried that she might bleeded on my parent bed..
After some exchanged of words.. I continued thrusting in & out very slowly as I’m afraid that she met be feel pained. After couple of strokes, pain is gone & she start moaning really really loud & her eyes were rolling out where you can see her white pupils.. Me? I’m still kinda shocked stage & couldn’t believe I’m having sex. The feeling was kinda weird or maybe not what I’m expecting.. You know the watery & kinda dirty feeling when you are in there?
All these while I kept telling myself “Shit, I’m having sex… Or am I doing right???” All she did was kept moaning non-stop & seem to be louder as each thrust goes… Seem to hinting me to give her more.. Some guys lasted only couple of minutes before he came.. Me? Mine very first time took me about 30 minutes to explode & that was the very first time I enjoyed so much from sex. It was unbelievable.
I shortly after recovering the first round.. We still wanted more & in go for round 2. Again I took 30 minutes or so to come. Just as good as the first..
