KY

I got to know KY back in SG in our the clubs.. We didn't go all the way.. Just petting and some heavy petting.

She was here with me in town and we start bring back the old memories.. The last time I've made her cum till she fall in love with my fingers.. This time round - I'm determine to make know what is real sex! :P Actually she did confess that she's not into sex. But I'm very sure she hasn't get to the real guy to make realise that...

On the 1st nite we did some heavy petting and initially she doesnt want it. Claim I not her bf.. So I waited and come out a evil plan.. Everytime I start my move.. She seem to cum very easily I'm determine not to let her enjoy the full package.. As I was fingering her..

Stupid and micro management.

Earlier roughly about 2 months back.. I was been asked and told that I will be promoted as a Manager... Because of this decision from my manager - M decided to call it a quit and move to another group..

However 2 months back to now, My higher management with all their some genius wisdom - They felt for some reasons but I would like to put this purely politic or "grab as many fishes as possible"
. So this is how it looks like now in our org structure:

Myself:
littleoutofordinary --> SG local manager (KB) --> Indian Director (SB)

My indian colleagues:
Indian team --> Indian local manager (ST)--> Indian Director (SB)

The rest of my team:
USA/EMEA --> Senior Manager (M) --> Indian Director (VT) --> SVP (TB)

So on paper, this how we look like but here's a twist here. I'm reporting to KB due to HR purpose. Same goes to my Indian colleagues who reports to ST. However our functional work - Reports back to M. Well this is what was communicate prior before the change. As many ppl are leaving as there's no local manager - They felt this would help everyone in long run.. But once the changes kickoff, What KB, ST & SB relay the story is totally differnet. They actually sync the stories where they are here to help on our work and eventually - We can escalate issue to them. However I will still be apac guys lead.

Ok focusing on HR related issue - Maybe they are right that it's good to have a local manager where they will know how to process things faster.. However I've never had problem having a US manager.. Infact I kinda like it. Also we are doing all these for those who have actually left oracle?

Then back to functional work.. How can they help us? I really don't understand.. 1st they are not even sure what we are doing and beside - Some of our work are sensitives and they are not authorize to know at all. So how do we work on this? During one to one with KB. he asked some questions that clearly tells me he really doesnt know what we are doing or rather have 0% what exactly the stuffs we does.

On KB - We actually hit on the wrong patches couple of times during these few years.. 1st I used a very wrong words on his stuffs which he & LL wasn't to their liking. 2nd - During one of the vul. scan on their machine that were done 1 years back, one of this machine actually created 100++ pages of vul. When asked how long does he needs to get it patches - He said 6 months. However when I say no and at most 3 weeks - he got very pissed and eventually do what I just told him.

Anyway during the 1 to 1. I can see that he doesn't like me and mentioned that I always picked on LL. I don't really like to talk about LL as I personally find him very xiao qi. But i explained the incident we had also say maybe issue wasn't my end but his?

On ST - Well this guy is really amazing... He actually avoids me totally.. I tried to make contact with him but he somehow always avoid me.

On SB - Well during the chat I had with with while in India - I can see he is very sincere. However really what he said is just trying to make me feel abit better but not working.

So now after all these stuffs which I didnt even requested to be promoted - I was made to face all these music and accidently - I gotto reported to 3 managers but best part is I not even sure how to do all these..

Think I kinda had enough as these is really not working for me. I kinda very disappointed as I never thought I would force to leave.. Really making me feel very unwanted... Sorry as I just need some spaces to throw my anger.. From top of the world to welcome to hell in just a short period of time.. It's really hard to accept.. But I know I have to..

My company is no longer runs and manage like a MNC anymore.. It's more like a local firm where they micro manage everyone..

JH _ Sent from heaven..

I gotto know JH from one of those website and we kinda start chatting after exchanges of emails & msn... Things didnt move really far as I kinda hope for.

On July 5 which was a Sat nite - I was kinda bore and start looking for someone to chat. JH was online and we kinda chat crap till the point to going out for movie.. So that night didnt had much happening and we left just as it is.

Next day, I kinda plan to go office as I know I will very tied in schedule... So might as well get something done before I flew to JP. JH ping me and was telling her plan to our of this pub for beer.. Thinking that I will be kinda free that night so might as well.

So there was with 2 of her friends drink and crapping jokes on each other.. Nothing sexual.. To be frank I wasn't even thinking of bring our relationship to another level..

When the nite is not getting younger and the ladies wanna head home soon.. By doing so - I was kinda force to drink 2 500ml in mins which in result.. make my face really red.. Soon everyone started to leave the table and I offer JH a ride as we live quite near - So to speak.

While in the car - I told her need sometime to cool down and we kinda start chatting crap again.. Around 10mins later, my cell rang and it's an alert from office.. So while talking to my colleagues in the phone, JH kept disturbing me while I tried to kept her away from cell in case my colleague hears anything.. Out of sudden - We stare at each other eyes for few sec, our lips started locking with each other.. One thing let to another and I suggested going elsewhere in order to complete the act..

Thou she kept saying no and wanted to go home - I knew that's wasnt her intention as her hand kept roaming around my.. you know.. Knowing MS is the best place to go since we are very near town - I drive like F1 reached the destination very soon.. The rest is SOP..

Things were pretty alright after that and we again metup on the very next day. This time in my house as my parents are out of town. However on this nite - She actually brings me to another level of pleasure.. Thou I love bj but for some reasons - I will never cum and felt so weak after having it - Her bj is really from heaven.. Never had I felt so weak and I can hardly walk for almost 30mins.. Man even now as I'm typing it - I still kept thinking abt her bj..

I was chatting with her earlier and we discuss abt our relationship.. Will talked abt it next time.. Now is 2am in japan.. not tired but don really feel like talking abt it anymore.. Nite..

SF - SQ flight attendants..

I writing this while I’m still in the flight to tokyo.. The moment that I board this 380 – or rather the moment I reached the airport (actually I met SF when I was at the money changer counter and think whether if I should make some jap changes) That was the 1^st time I met SF – She around 168 I blieve but really look stunning to me.

Thru the trip till now –(I’m still in the mid of the flight.. 4 more hours to go) I been trying or rather thinking how should I approach her.. Soon enough – I found enough courage to request if she had time to chat as I’m looking for someone to talk. Anyway the short 5 mins chat is pretty much me doing the talking – Then she left as she gotto work. 20 mins later – I msg her and saying th exactly words:

Me: Hey, you name is SF,m right?

SF: Yes, I’m.

Me: Well I was wondering.. if I can ask you out when I’m back in Singapore??

SF – gridding while someone kinda distrub us.

ME: I believe this is not the 1^st time, right?

SF: **Laughing** Yes it’s not the 1^st time.

ME: You know it’s ok to say no.. Seriously… I fully understand

SF: Why don’t you give me your contact and I call you.

ME: This is my name card

SF: So when are you coming back?

ME: Well I’m thinking of doing some backpack after my work.. So I’m not sure..

SF: I call you J

That’s the conv we had during thiese few min.. Guys & ladies – Pray things goes well!!!

3 days after the above incident - Till date she hasn’t call.. .. Sigh..

Rising sun

I'm leaving to the land of of rising sun.. Or rather land of best porn in the world!! :P 3 freaking weeks!!! yeah baby

Anyway I do have some story to share - JH but just that I'm kinda busy with work and at the sametime very screwed now.. Maybe will try to find some time to do so soon...

P - Something nice going to happen.. soon?

Hello.. Finally back to SG from that freaking place.. To be frank there's nothing for you to offer.. No good clubs, babes, place of interests that really is interesting or sort.

I don't frankly don understand why would someone ever be interested to visit India.. Furthermore the hotel rate is really too much.. Or maybe it's just bangalore.



Moment I back to SG - I started activated my kakis and just nice F was in ST james I of cos join him... Somehow when in the club, I felt very confidence.. Not sure why it just a kinda of feelings that I would say I used to enjoy it..

Of while dancing and had afew slip of drinks, there's couple of ladies standing around our area and kinda had a feeling some were looking at me. Somehow I didnt make my move which is pretty usual nowadays.. But soon enough we were kinda shoulder to shoulder and I was actually standing just right infront of this lady.. Not really great looking but still do-able. Her 1st move was show me her glass and signal me - finish the drinks which I did.

Her name is P and don't really love Singaporean.. From what she told me, she travel back & forth with HK and di da di da..

Any halfway thru I met another group of friends and sort of running around 2 places at the sametime.. However soon enough P wanted to leave and which give me some breathing space to work on another group of friends..

No sad to say I didn manage to hit on P but who knows.. She even invite me to visit her in HK.. hmmm

Bangalore

Here I am again.. Bangalore... Places that lack of nite life and confirm some good places to visit. Double confirm no babes to look or sianz and triple confirmed u wanna go back home the moment u touch down. That's is your incredible India!!!

This trip was requested from my boss who felt our guys need someone to visit them once a while. but this will be a bit special here.. 2 months back I was told and on the way to promote as manager but some due to some politic play - This is not going to happen and somehow this "Hi, I'm here" visit has become "Hi, I feel your pain and lets go thru this together..."

Thank god I will be leaving on end of this week and head to my fav places - Japan!!! yeah.. Oh ya.. After all these major work is done - I will start looking for jobs.. I'm tired of here already..

QQ

I met QQ @ one of the KTV joint almost amonth back.. Yes she's TKB. however she seem to me a very decent gal. Then again - What's new from gals like her. So we usually only hangs out on Sunday nite which she did complained about on why I only available at night..

So on the nite of 14 July, we met and went for some streamboat near bugis.. Soon she mentioned that never been to any of the dancing clubs in Singapore.. I was on shorts and not much places to go.. So i thought why not those Thai Disco instead? However she didn like it and we actually sneak out from the clubs even after placing the orders..

Since it's Sunday and only clubs to go is St James - I told her need to go back get dress before we head down party.. So when we reached to my void deck.. She was at 2 minds on coming over my place while I get dress (It was almost 12am and parents are sleeping). But eventually she did came over and I wasn't really think of having anything special with her. I like to but never thought it will happen.

Soon when time was right - I took the chance and gave her a french kiss.. One thing let to another and we endup having sex.. I have to say thou she got a pretty good body here.. But she pretty dead in bed :(..

I won't say I don't enjoy it but rather I need it after DIY for so long :P

However we met last night as she was scheduled to leave this morning.. I guess she kinda feel time is running out and yet to get anything from me (In terms of $$$).. She actually tried her luck on asking if I can pay for her flight back to Singapore again.. Thou I agree but told her will only give her when she's back.. Very next min - Face turn black. Kaoz.. China gal really straight forward lor.. Can't really stand her...

PS: Sorry for this poor posting.. I just wanna jotted it down and hopefully will have time to refresh this post soon..

BA

I was actually in St James couple weeks back with M. But this bastard frz of mine decided to took off around 12 when I havent even started my drinking engine.. Lucky he got another group of guys who I happened to know one of them which in the end I endup hanging out with them.

Think SG is super small lor.. later that night I met my old boss. Said hi abit and he intro me 2 of his gf. 2 Milf. Frankly speaking think I freaking daring that night or simply I wasn't really care. I will talk abt it later.
T - M's frz got a lady friend joining us later ( I heard it's his colleague sis).. and I think that gal was having some interests in me that night. Hope night wracking, trying to put me down. Make me drink like hell but I wasn't really making a move on her. In fact initially i was flirting with Unknown (Actually I forgot her name :P). kissing and hugging her in public. Then shortly I was doing the same BA as well.

When it's getting late think around 1am - BA gotto go as one of her frz is drunk. So i ask her if she can come back and look for me. Surprisely she did and later that night brought her to hotel for some fun. But I was very tired and in the end spend the entire night with her and bond her twice.

Soon things started to get ugly here. She start calling or sms me everyday.. To the point that she will uses another unknown number to me dropping me a call. All these while I was avoding her (I wasnt avoiding her but she has gone too much). from all her calls.

I think this is the 1st time ever I met a stalker.. seriously it can be quite ugly.. I already told her not interested to go for relationship but guess she wasn't in-sync with me.. Now her calls has seldom alot. She used to make 10 over calls a day.. I don't even make 10 calls to my gf in a week!!!

Hopefully she will goes away soon. Sorry BA - I just not interested to go relationship and definitely you are not for me. I just happen to need you that night. Call me jerk if you like.

M throwing his towel...

M who didn't took too well about my upcoming promotion have decided to call it a quit - Well sort of.. Basically he have been working on a request to move to another group which going to take place most likely next week. All this happened when my boss ain't @ work. So nothing much can be done and it's pretty much conclusive..

After hearing this news, boss dropped me a call and we had a quick chatted about this.. Thou I knew she been wanting or felt it's best for him to move some where else - What she told me during the conversation thou not surprising to me but did managed make me felling off my chair

"I think his move might actually work best for everyone!!!".

I had a quiet laugh about it. Not because I'm happy to see him going off but I never expect a manager would actually said something like this.. Especially for someone who actually under her wings for past 7-8 years..

Not sure it's a blessing in disguss for everyone or infact will become a timebomb here.. Thou almost everyone knows M is definitely not the best person to talk to when you are running into some issues - I'm have a guts feeling my guys in India might felt that M was force to leave due to me.. Still I'm glad to be going to India by end of this month (Trust me.. If not due to work - Give me $$$ I also don wanna go lor!!) and get the chance to chat with them in person. Hopefully everything will work it out to me..

Back to my personal life.. I was out again to KTV with K & F yesterday and the bill for each head is $200.. Something just came to my mind.. Why am I wasting my time thinking of E, going to KTV and not enjoying myself? Like yesterday outing.. I didnt get to bed anyone, didnt get to drink enough and confirmed not getting enough fun from it.

Again K sent an activation to KTV tonight.. which I told him not wanting to spend such $$ again.. Also I like to start planning on the stuffs that I've been wanting to achieve... Here are some of them which hoping it will come true by this year..

1. Obtain afew certification that will confirmed enchance my career profile. I guess getting promotion to Manager is a very good start of my career new chapter.
2. Slim down to what I was 4 years back. Back then I look damm fit, at least decent looking.. Now looking myself.. I felt like it's Piggy god has taken over my body!!
3. Find my true love. E is definitely and confirmed over - Be it what she's going to happen to her now or in future. So start learning to take rough road and move on. Thou it's not something you can rush but hope it will come true. Oh ya - My new love must at very least, look like Fann Wong hor!!!
4. Perform well with my new role.. This is something new to me but I do hope I'm more than capable to do them. Remb a soccer kakis always used to say I can be a good captain/manager if I want to be even thou I kept saying no to them. I just refuse to give a try.
5. Brush up my PR skill. Think my PR skills only comes out when I'm high.. Either I need to be high at all time or start finding some ways to.. u know. ;)


Oh ya - I just had a damm stupid dreams.. Basically the dream said I got AIDS after going for a checkup or was doing some blood test. Can't remb it.. Nabei.. touchwood ok??? I still yet to get marry, have kids.. **fxck** enough babes. Therefore TOUCHWOOD A POWER OF 1000000000000000000000000000000 !!!!!

Relief..

Went out for some drinks with L & N over tues night.. and eventually I decided to pour my sorrows to someone.. I've been feeling like shit for past few months and been wanted to share with someone.. Also at the sametime wanna let myself go totally but somehow I kept controlling myself.. I fully well know that I can't do that as there's too many plates on hand..

After some drinks I started to pour all my thoughts and feelings.. When I'm done with whatever xcvn i wanna share and hearing some advises from him.. My tears start pouring off.. (Just 1.5 drops lah).. But somehow I felt very relieve.. My heart just felt so much lighter.. Thanks alot L thou you wont get to see this.. :)

When I got back home - Drop a email to E again telling her, please give me a chance to live without her and stop calling me.. Be it her current relationship is going to work or not. Just don call me. I know I'm jerk for doing that but I really need that some peace and life without E again..

E.. Why?

She never fail to surprise me.. And I believe I've done way more stuffs for her than any guys.. Somehow she felt we should end our story 3-4 mths back.. Actually I kinda expected it..

Now she got someone who she thinks is the one. Can you believe that? 2 weeks ago she claimed no relationship very sure.. 2 weeks??!!? 14 days??!!?? To be frank - I've been thinking about her lately.. Alot and I trying all sort of ways to get it off my mind.. I know it's a losing battle but I'm and still trying.. However hearing this news really hurt me big time..

Why is that I have to know her? Had I never meant her ever, I most likely happy married with 2 kids and a beautiful wife.. I guess and strongly believe in karma and guess I owed her bigtime in my previous life and now it's my time for payback. But 2nd time? Havent and shouldnt I already fulfilled the payment after the 1st? I was on the verge to end my life when it 1st happen and took me fxxking long time to pull myself back.. I know I way stronger than I was 5 years back but it's very painful to go thru this again - & alone.. Like people says - Love and hate so much similar..

Can someone please guide me out from this hell?

K wants more...

Been hanging out with K for the past 3 Fri.. Along these times, she been trying to hint me about wanting to be with me again. Frankly speaking I’m not exactly sure if I’m ready to jump into another correctives camp – yet.. I’m kinda happy to be what I am now. I can do what I like, want or wish. No need to report to anyone or doing those routine stuffs every weekend.

In the end I told her that frankly speaking we don’t know each other at all and I definitely not keen to jump into another relationship, drag for x number of months/years, make some small and big fights and eventually we both decided it best to go our separate ways.. Let’s take thing slowly and see how it goes.. Lastly I make it a point say sorry but it’s either my way or no way..

On other hand – I know feel lonely and would love to have a partner.. Especially like today.. J Anyway, I think I felt that I like her but will never love her again.. Things like what she did last week (She cried and make a scene outside a club) after some drinks.. Whatever it is, let’s just wait and see..

Long over due...

I'm back - Again.. Sound familiar huh? Well I really wish to keep writing what's going on with me but somehow both work and personal too a whole lot of my time.. There are many things I wanna do but just don have the plate and strength to so.. Thou not much reader here but still, Like to say sorry for being MIA.. Promise not to be angry k?

Let see what's interesting in my life for pas 8 month since my updates.. Travel to China & Japan again for work.. Everytime I do some travel, it takes around 2-3 weeks to clear my backlog once I'm back.. I do love travelling but hate the after effect.. Anyway you gain some and lose some right? ;)

One of the biggest change in my life recently is - I SINGLE!!!! YEAH!!! (hmm.. Am I suppose to be happy?) E has been someone in my life for past 5-6 years.. Thou we ain't always together all these while.. She did affect my life alot.. I started to realise that it time to move on - She comes and goes way too many time and everytime I welcome her back with open arms. This time round, I told that's it. This is end of us and I seriously not interested to her friend at all. Somehow she spin my head everytime she's back. No mater how much pain she caused me, I still find strength and justification to ignore those flaws.. During past few years, I've given up my chances to move/progress my career further. But I opt out due to her.. Sigh somehow I'm not getting the dividend what I was hoping for..

Well she did tried to initial conversation for no particular reason after the breakup.. However everytime I gave her no chance to do so. Admit I do miss her alot but on another hand, I really hope to start a fresh new chapter on my love story with someone else. Said some nasty stuffs to her and hopefully this will be the last time hearing from her.. Others might thing I'm avoiding th prob here.. Maybe but I don care really. E, if you do see this - Please stay as far as possible from me, okie?

Not sure by chance or what. Eversince she's out of my life, my career just somehow start to fly.. I got recognized for all my hardwork from my coy. Rec an award which suppose to be most Prestige of all. This follow by my boss decided and going to put out the paper to promote me as manager.. Anyway I guess there's something for me to look forward than love. On other hand - I started to date quite afew ladies after my broke off but will talk abit abt it later..

Back to my work and promotion. To be exact, I'm only back to SG for like coming 3 years and another colleague actually been here for 2 or 3 times more than me!!. Still our boss felt that I'm a better person to do this new role than him. Putting on his shoe, I would surely felt like shit if I'm him. During one to one chat my boss had with him, he didnt took it very well and requested that he still reported to my boss than me. Boss query me about it and this is what I said "I'm perfectly fine with that. Also I would not want to force him doing something that he's not very comfy about it.." After said that, I was telling myself "Man, didn't know I'm so da fan!!" hahahaha

But seriously I'm sure everyone would do the same as I do. No point forcing someone doing something to his liking. Beside we need to work together.. More frz is always better than more foes. right? Anyway after this news was made known to us, I thought and dropped him a call aweek later. Somehow I felt I need to do that eventually.. Might as well get it done with. but the respond I got from him is very negatives.. He clearly very upset with this decision and felt he deserve this manager than I do. Anyway I told and tried explaining that I'm here for him and truly understand his feeling.. If there's any way my help is needed - He is just a phone call away.

At the sametime my boss was intown recently and I brought her around town. Sure most people would think, Sentosa, Chinatown, Zoo & etc.. You are half right.. I got something special for her and also wanna impress her why it's not easy to be Singaporean.. So here we go to - Army Museum!!! :P

I know I know - Why bring an angmo there?? Look at this way - They are not Singaporean and confirm doesn't even know how tough it is to be one. (okok. I know we sleep and eat then sleep during resevist.. But hey - We serve the country right as in to be ready for callup, right? :P) Actually I think it is a brilliant move from me.. Seriously.. 1st she commented doesn't know our army is so young and when I shared the experience I had during my NS days.. I can see that she's impressed..Sorry I mean very impressed. ;) Confirmed scored point!!!

After short tour around Singapore we are back to work and I've been having close relationship with other groups manager.. The prob with my team is there's no manager level in my group. So lot of time I'm kinda acting manager here. So my boss and other group chatted and boss told me they just can't stop giving and putting good words for me.. There's this manager who always find fault on me when I 1st came back but I guess somehow I managed to impress him that - I know my stuffs more enough to throw weight around. Thou we didnt start well initially but now he has since always have something nice to say about me. My boss was surprised when she told me and I was truly very surprised.. So like I said - It's good to make frz than foes.. Seriously, dividend does pay. :)

As mentioned earlier, I did managed to date couple ladies.. Actually babed.. :p Let see.. 1 China, 2 Thai, & a jap!!.. Not bad I think for someone like me.. Maybe I’ll talk more about it next time.. But one thing I wanna say is. I somehow lose interests with local gals.. Really.. I cant even bother to talk to them. I wish can say why but just cant find the ans yet.. K recently start going out with me more often and she too, broke off with her bf. I know she always has feeling for me but somehow I having 2^nd thoughts.. Why? When we out drinking last week – She got drunk and start crying and complaining everything.. This reminds me what it was couple years back when I’m in State while she’s called me after/during drinking sessions.. Seriously I do not wanna go thru all these again.. It’s scary.. Anyway I’m not eager to jump to a ship yet.. So we see..