Confuse state

Haven’t been trying much lately.. Well - it almost month that I didn't try anything about my life. Just abit re-cap what is going on this couple of weeks..

2 weeks ago weekend – One of my personal friends cum ex-colleague was in town & came over Austin for a visit. So me as hosts, bring him to couple of places in town. First stop we headed to is – Stripclub. Yes!!! For him.. Not me thou.. I not into pay to have accompany.. Know what I mean?

Anyway this friend of mine – B. Has been talking about it even before he came over here. So we headed to 2 stripclubs on his first night in Austin. I could tell his balls almost blew off when the ladies there gave him that look & those erotic dances.. ;)

Last week. When to one of the clubs downtown & surprising, there are quite huge turnouts of Asian chicks around.. But not much action from me.. Wasn’t really movitiated to make any moves.. Sigh.. My life is getting very dull & not young anymore.. You know? Think I need to get my ass back home ASAP.. Before I really become old & inactive liao..

Migrating is straight no no for me..

Recently my colleague & I happen to talk about this topic recently.. He’s an Irish & like me – both of us came to State & work almost at the same time. There’s was a period of time me thinking of giving up Singapore Citizenship & opt for State. Guess my current situation will be a lot easy since I working for a big firm in State & using my company connections on obtaining one should be a pretty easy.

However after staying here for so long & weighting the pro & cons – I felt that I would never be a true American at any point of time. Maybe in future.. But definitely not in near future… Also I’ve seem to love Singapore a lot more ever since leaving that nanny state.

Happy Birthday Singapore

9 August - Today is the day where all my countrymen comes together & celebrate our 40th Birthday. Today is the day where 60 years ago where US drop "Fat Man" to Japan where it ended WWII.. Today is the day where I couldn't sleep again.. Kaoz..

Anyway it great to see our nation has growth from strength to strength & starting to hear lots of good comments about our country (& bad as well) from American on the streets. You be surprise – I mean really surprise that how they wish their government follows the model of ours.. Whatever it is, Hope we will have another many many times 40 years of Nation celebrations on going.

Oh ya - Presidential election is round the corner & hopefully there’s a walkover again this time. :P No don’t get me wrong that I pro-PAP or anything that you can link me with, okie??.. The main reason on why I wish that is - I lazy to vote as it is still quite troublesome for oversea Singaporean like me to vote. Hee

Ok back to serious note – Frankly speaking, unless our country is to be declared as Martial Law state, it doesn’t make much different who is the president of Singapore. Sorry for saying that & again not trying to put down our president. The only power he/she has is veto power. Which still has to be agreed upon by his board of advisor. That why for those who served or still serving the army, the pledge goes something like loyal to the country & President of Singapore. (I think but sorry if I’m wrong).

Again I might be wrong so sorry for the wrong info - During the Martial law state – The whole parliament will be denounced & the 3 Armed forces will be directly in-command & report to the president.. That why as I say, it doesn’t makes much different who the number one man in Singapore.

The main reason why I feel our current president deserve to be our president once again is due to the fact I dare to say many of so called patriot Singaporean might not have a clue of it – In 1974, Singapore was under terrorists attack by the Japanese Red Army. And in order to save the civilian or causing more anymore damage to civilian structure, President Nathan volunteered to be taken as hostage & follow them all the way to Yemen – In exchanged for the safety of all Singaporeans. Just on this fact – I fully feel he deserved to be president for how many people in this world would be so self-less on his/her own safety?

No – I’ve no relatives on any accounts of my memories who are involved in that incident. And no I not Pro-gov. I believe in what Deng XiaoPing once said – As long it catches mice, I do not care whether it a black or white cat.

So hopefully he will win the election & again be the head of state once again. J

Damm troublesome lor!!!

Just managed to get the necessary info on how to bring back my beloved cat back to SG.. I'm telling you.. damm troublesome man... The SOP & time taken is going be a tortured..

So I decided that from tomorrow onwards, going to teach mm(my cat name) on how to swim & roll a sampan.. Then will be waiting for her @ Sentosa shore... awaits for her arrival.. ;)

Wait.. need to teach her map & compass reading too.. Else if she arrived @ China & become someone meal.. how?

Great pal are hard to find.

Called mum last night on checking her if she alright.. Again she as usual - voice sound like on the verge of crying.. Later did I know that one of my Uncle(Mum's bro) past away.. My mum comes from a big family & my guess this uncle of mine should be around 70-80 ages of years..

It very sad to hear such tone from your love one... Especially when you are thousand of miles away & you can't don anything.. I can hear her sadness & really really miss me.. I miss her alot too - Especially home cook food and the warmness TLC that you could get from your mum.. Chat with J about this & also let him know that I kinda decided to quit if my Boss is unable to work things out for me. Guess what he offered me after that? Sure you will not guess it –

Ask if I would like him to attend the wake on my behalf. I was totally surprise & really thank for his gesture – Especially when someone offered it without you asking.. In the end I agreed to it. Not because I wanted to show those group of uncles & aunts that my mum has a filial son. I sort of guess that my mum will be abit glad to see her son for doing such gesture even while he’s at oversea. Well that my belief.. Hopefully it comes true..

2^nd – He urge me come back ASAP and saying that will “yang wo” till I find a job… Really god, think you have given me someone that I will never trade for.. I don’t know about how you feel – But I always strongly feel those great pals are always very very hard to come by.. I’ve friends who are so “chee hong” that they will totally MIA for x period of time till their loves one are gone.. I never do that I always felt that pals are for life & should always appreciate their existence no matter where, how or when…

Speaking of love one – My ex E, has been a pain in the ass.. She has been blowing hot & cold all these while & keep flip flop her comments and stands… I still love her very much & really wish to have her by my side.. But looking at how things goes, things will not change much even thou I back in SG.. Anyway I kinda figure out on giving up true love anymore..

Suppose to write Miss K.. Part 3.. But with so many happening going on around me.. Not really in the mood to write.. Will try to write it over the weekend.. & oh ya.. EPL is on again!! Going downtown to catch the match this Sunday.. See you

Review day

Spoke to Boss about temp back to SG due my mum.. She didn't say much just said will check it out for me the possibility.. Hopefully things will turn out good... Anyone know any good temple in State?

Dummy website created by dummy!!

I was looking for the hotline numbers of my Mobile phone company & guess what they listed on their website for international callers? "For international users, please call 16xx to speak to one of our Customer Service Consultant"....

NABEI.. I'm at oversea.. how to use that number to call??!!??

Miss K.. Part 2

Wokeup the next day, drop her a sms & we kinda decided to me for dinner.. She wasn’t that cute than I saw her @ clubs.. Well you know.. Always give some discounts on babes that you think she is @ clubs.. :P Anyway we headed off to Bugis for a Jap restaurant which she suggested (Hey, I not in town for so long.. so can consider a tourist mah.. Of course locals have to decide. :P)

After dinner, we had some coffee @ one of the Mac & chat for quiet abit.. I was about to head MS to meetup with my bro for his birthday party.. I did ask if she wanna join along & maybe it would be fun which she agreed to it. So go we went to MS had a pretty decent nite together.. We danced, drink, chated & joked thru-out the nite..

Soon my brother is dead drunk & head home without me knowing it. So it left K & myself all by ourselves @ the club – Wondering what should we do next.. What I did next was something very daring & never.. I Swear hor.. I never did it before.. I query if she wanna spent a nite @ my places.. Now parents are at home.. – No wait. My whole family is @ home… Am I nuts or what? Not really.. Well my thoughts was we had a good time & sadly to say I be leaving in couple of days time. So just wanna spent & enjoying more time with her.. that all. She was kinda hesitate initially & did gave me a dirty look. But after explaining what is actually all about – She agreed. Anyway it the time of the month.. Could’t do much at all, right?

So in the end, we spent the whole night & the whole next day together – In my room. Chatting & sharing our past. It around this time, she shared this with me. At first she thought that our dinner date will going to be a super short one. Presumed she going to see thru me totally inside outside within couple of hours. Not very sure what she meant thou.. But after spending couple of hours together, she still couldn’t really figure about still find & me me intriguing. And when I proposed to head for my place after clubs, she agrees to it due to the fact that she still wanna know me more & thinking that if I looking for that, then tough luck as her aunt is here for visit. I was kinda falter & at the same time lost – Couldn’t see thru me after couple of hours.. Is that a compliment or am I such a mystery or what?

Anyway later that night, we went to some KTV with J & gang reached home @ late night.. That’s how we spent our 1^st 2 days together. Part 3 will be here soon.. If I’ve bore you – I’m so but then……… sorry lor.. ;)

Interview with C - Round 1

Just finished the interview a while ago & it was pretty casual than I expected or used to have.. But have to say – I kinda like the manager who conducted the interview. Straight to the point and show decent respect on me. I guess my current working env is couple of times bigger than what he has to offer and don’t’ see a need to test on my technical skill since I’m working for one of the biggest firm in the IT sector.

Anyway it gone pretty decent and it seem that he kinda impress on what I’ve done for the past 8/9 years of my career.. Not sure will I take up the offer but will definite attend for the 2^nd round.. Provided there’s one for me..

Miss K..

This happened @ around 26^th Sept 2004.. Can’t really recall the exact date but pretty sure I got it right. Got to know this sweet, cute & charming lady @ Devils… Infact how we get to know each other is really really out of the blue.

It was on the 8^th of Sept when we first met. The very time our eyes locked on each other when she was @ the bar top while I was just couple of sits away from her. It started off when J knocked me & said that a gal is checking on me. So when I turned my view towards her, our eyes met & start giving each other friendly smile. But nothing happens after that.

Thou J kept pestering me to go out & say hi to her – I was kinda reluctant to do so. Not sure why… Anyway after 1 2 hours later, I’m still at the same spot while she was just afew steps away from me.. & thru out the nites, we were stealing glances at each other but none of us did not pick it up from there.. But I was very glad that I didn’t make another move.. Reasons for that – Her so call BF was there at that freaking nite!! There’s been one moment where she was hugging her bf while I was just standing beside them (behind her bf) & she actually holds my hand while hugging that poor chap..

That moment – I was kinda lost. Asking & thinking myself – “WTF does this means??!!?” Anyway soon after we decided to call a nite & while I was on my way out & walked past by her – She raised her glass as if trying to give me a toast. Actually it means goodbye. So out I went out & again J saw it. Asking & nabei-ing me the whole nite saying stuffs like no balls & etc for not making any moves.. J

Next time I saw her was 18^th Sept where we were kinda celebrating my early birthday @ devils again. Again I saw her – At the same spot from a distance. & again I did not make any moves.. Guess I was kinda turnoff by the holding hands incident.

On the 22^nd of Sept, we met again – Same spot, location & time. This time round I was kinda determine not making any moves on her. She has a bf & I don’t really see a reason to get myself into some triangle relationship.

At around past midnight, one of my gfs needs to pee & I offer to accompany her. K saw me walking towards the gents/ladies direction. Next thing she did is – Excuse herself away from her bf & dash towards me ask for my number. Knowing that I be leaving in exactly a week time, I see no harm getting to know someone. & hey – I leaving soon so if something nasty comes out, I be thousand miles away!! :P (Am I a jerk or not??).

We did sms thru-out the nite after that & things just got better after that. Kinda late now.. Will continue tomorrow. Sweet dreams guys..

Change of Address

Hi guys,

First of all, have no idea anyone actually reading my crap.. But anyway still wanna annonce that this is the new link for my blog.. So that all folks. :P take care & stay chill..

Phone interview..

Going to have a phone interview with a firm from Singapore.. Sorry till now - Still couldn't figure out whether this firm is a US or SG firm.. Anyway kinda surprise to hear this confirmed Singaporean manager agree to have a phone interview after explaining why I won't be able to make it to his office for a chitchat, talk cock sing song cum play ping pong.. :P

Have been sending out CV for couple of months & till date - only 3 responds.. Kinda wondering if it because I do not have the skillset market value or it just due to the fact that it senseless to interview cum hiring someone out of country.. Hopefully it the later one.. Else I will cruse & swear wtf I've been doing for the past X years in my career..

Tho nothing is sad - But I been thinking that it will be very sad to leave my current employer & effort I've gave for the past 2 years in State... But then again, there are some things that are most important in life than career & $$..

Always believe one must know his roots, no matter where he is or at. This belief got stronger eversince I came here. Tho we can't really say much of our root or culture in SG due to the fact that our lifestyle & culture is kinda like rojak.. Guess that why we are so unquie & why I love my hometown. :P

Anyway wish me luck & hopefully I can be back soon.. Oh ya - Didn't procliam how much is my expectation cos I really have no Fxxking idea what is the market rate in SG.. Anyone has any idea how much should be reasonable enough?

PS to Anonymous & future to be Anonymous: It always feel glad that someone actually are looking at my bullshit.. But mind if you can just leave a name for me? rather than Anonymous. Thanks Dude or Babe!!