We are so into each other

Remenber the movie “He’s not into you”? Basically is comedy story that says how guys go after gals & etc.. The key line of the story is guys will not even try if he’s not into you at all ladies..

Well that’s the storyline in the movie. Now between AL & me.. We are officially dating and calling each other as dear now. It all started of on thurs when she claimed that she’s not very sure if she’s really has feeling for me. To prove that doubts, she requested to stop seeing and meet each other for time being. On the day when she’s willing to meet me – Then it shows she do miss and have feel for me. Thou it’s not something I prepare or agree with it, still I agreed on doing her ways.

After hanging out the call – I kinda felt lousy and dropped her a mail with a song “Waiting for you” and indicating it’s something I like to hear together with her but no hidden agenda or hinting anything.

So next day come where we didn’t sms each other. Usually she will sms me during noon which I suppose her break time. 1pm past, no sms from her L… Then at night I somehow initiated the sms chat with her and end up her asking me to call her. Chatted for around 30mins and she dropped a sms back saying “miss chatting with you”. I was kinda pissed that moment and said some harsh sms to her.. After exchange some smses, she suggested that we try be together for 3 months and see how things goes. But her friends and family will not be knowing this till she’s very sure.

Anyway we been meeting for past 2 days and things are of course working very well. I can feel she’s totally falling for me and so do I. We commented that there are somethings we are actually doing together with each other, which we won’t have done so in our previous relationship. For me I’m not really a sms or phone chatting person. I still remb me hardly call E during my 1 month away to China and hardly call her. For her she’s also not really a phone person too and she never forgo her sleep in order to chat with people..

I guess how we met and things turn out that well was really very unexpected. I didn’t appear in her life at the right moment.. But I managed to say and melt her heart at the right time. Yes it’s so call 3 months trial period but I really can’t see we can’t work it out after this 3 months. Everything is so perfect and we seem to have endless topic to chat about.. Maybe she’s the 1 that I’ve been looking for?

Trying my best

I was hanging out with AL for the whole day yest (Sort of) and we both enjoyed each other company alot.. Plus yest was the 1st time we make out. :P However I knew I need to drop her a call once I reach home.. Apparently she's lacking in confidence with guys which is due to some jerk she met couple months back.

Rushed home and dropped her a call.. During the chat I told her I know that this call is a must and I need to be the 1st person to call her as I wanted to assure her I'm here for her. Again we end up chatting till wee hours and again topic is about us. Still we end the call happily with each other..

Come to think of it.. I never in my life going after a gal so hard before.. All my ex are like come and bang - We are an item now.. Now I need to keep doing things for her so that she can feel my sincerity.. No doubts she's has shortcomings and couple of issues in her life.. But i willing to work it out.. Hopefully things will go well for us. Oh btw - She claimed she's V!!!! Given that its true.. Think I kinda forgot the feeling on how to handle such gals already.. Think the only V i had was 14 years back and we were both damm young.. Can someone tells me how to handle such gals?

On the sidetrack.. Arsenal drew with Liv on 4-4 triller!!! Man.. What a match!!

Some thoughts to share..

Last night I was reading thru all my old posts and notice 1 thing – My English is getting from bad to worse. WTF -_-“.. It seems quite obvious I kind of lost touch the moves since I move to back to home ground of “singlish”.. Don’t get me wrong.. Never in my thoughts look down those who speak singlish as their 1st lang.. In fact I do enjoy using singlish.. It’s a quite of bond I never get to have when chatting with ang mos..

When having conversation with those ang mos, most likely you will be using terms like:
Damm
I feel you
Get my drift

But doing with locals it tend to be more fun.. We get to uses stuff like wah liao, knn.. cb & etc… Once when I was in San Fran airport and from far I heard someone using the word “lah”.. Instantly I turn around and saw a couple trying to do some shopping and somehow the hubby did look @ my direction as well.. We both give a smile to each other. Guess both knows each of us from the same mother tougue huh? :P

Many years ago I heard someone telling me this – You see chinese from china group together and help each other.. Same for most of the countryman who will do likewise when needed.. However Singaporean are the lest few who don’t and you should be the last person to think of if helps needed.

Sadly but true – I kinda agree with this statement.. Somehow for good or worst.. Singaporean are kind to people who they do not know.. You can see we flocking over to help someone plight when it’s on news.. But when come to friends?? Errrr….. Anyway I hardly get to meet any Singaporean out of this little island.. Think my record so far is only – twice.. hmm we are really a minority compare with others hor? lol

Someone dropped an comment earlier and asked if I can share tips or 2 on how to tackle gals.. or aka sianz chiobu in singapore context. (Singlish again.. hehe).. To be frank – I doubt I’m any good in doing that. Maybe my luck was kinda lucky or for some reasons, there’s some kind of looks/feeling I do give ladies… Maybe this should be answered by ladies instead of me..

However as ages keep adding more to my belt.. I notice me no longer like before where all I can is get into some babes skirt and once done deal – Secretly telling myself “YEAH!!!”… That was those days and I think most people are pretty much the same as me. Nowadays I more keen in chemistry.. get connected and rapports.. I may be kissing 1 but that doesn’t mean I’m connected to her. It’s hard to explain…

Look good plus a good speaker does help a lot.. Able to crack silly jokes will be a plus to gain attention as well.. However I think what most gals see are 男人味…. This is something that either you got or don’t.. Alternativesly, you can choose to be “special” one among the group.. Or should I say looks weird among the gang.. It’s strange you see. My friend was got pickup and get lucky in the club. His move? Nothing.. Sitting down there doing nothing or even joining us in a group and yet this babe choose him than anyone else.. Her point? He’s so quiet and kinda attrached by him..

I think most importantly is be yourself. It pointless if you tried to be cool and be someone who ain’t yourself. You may get lucky on the 1st night meeting a gal of yourself but how long can it last?

Oh ya.. I notice there are getting more and more sex blogs nowadays.. Plus Gary Ng who’s now leading the pack of everyone of us. It seem blogging that 1 sex live isn’t that taboo anymore..

Things are coming together now..

I would say things are starting to layout nicely for me eversince the last "showdown" with my management.. No longer having much issue with my manager. Yesterday I initiated a conversation with him and want to know what are things he like to see me doing or should not be. And respond was althou political - I would say it's a good start.. Hey, rome wasn't built in a day right?

Of late I've been hanging out with A alot and for some reasons, we somehow click damm well. Party together flirt with gals and cracking jokes at each other. :) It nice to have another good pal in my list..

However I started to feel tired of my current party life.. I know i gotto stop been so wild and I do find myself tame down alot.. No more sleeping around thou I do wish... Something about me is everytime I met a gal - Bringing her back is last thing in my mind.. A felt that I just trying not go back to my old days.. Maybe it's true but I think it's good. What A & K said abt is true.. I do have the chance to get lay but I refuse to do so.. No doubt I've been "virgin" for this year.. hahhahaa - At least I know I not screwing things up nowadays.. :P.. One must know when to go home eventually, right?

Back late March I met AL slowly we started to sms and get in contact quite freq.. Thou we only met twice but I do feel we connects everywhere.. Never felt so deeply into someone for quite awhile.. I not sure is due to pure luck or whatever that is, I was given a chance to celeb her bd eve with her @ sentosa.. woohoo.. Well thou I wasnt quite sure if that's her bd eve that nite, I thought it's better to b prepare than never.. Bought a cake and indicated her nick on the cake...( I did that on purpose :P) plus a bottle of red wine.. Thru out the whole night it goes pretty well and againtry not to thing too much abt it. Anyway I can tell from her eyes she appericate what i did which is good start.. :)

while driving back home - I posted her question on why she decided to spend her bd with me instead of someone special? She did replied but clearly she's not really speaking "english" :P.. I again asked her if I'm special to her - And respond is abit. For the good or worse, I learnt to be contented enough and never prompt her further after that.. I think if 5 years back - I won't miss that chances to make the kill!!!... Anyway...

After she's back - we started sms and she did claimed there's a possibities for us but we see how things goes.. So this is where we were and soon enough I left country for business.. During that 1st few days we kinda chat almost every other day.. Till one nite - I decided to let her know my dark secret so that she can decided if she still wanna try to work things out.. Likewise she told me some of hers and somehow it's that moment - We started to bond even further.

Sadly she's leaving for holiday with another guy.. To b frank I felt like shit.. Not bcos I felt been played or what.. Or rather I kinda regret not going further on her bd nite.. Anyway she could choose not telling me but she did - Which I'm appericate her for sharing with me.. However she's still refuse to allow me to enter her space.

3 days past since they left... I felt.. I donno.. it's hard to explain.. and surely doesnt feel good when she's not really trying to assure me.. plus I heard something from their hotel that I shouldn't have (I actually wanted to send her flower and called hotel to verify.. Somehow hotel was saying it's Mr & Mrs kok. When I was abt to order the flower - I was kinda lost... I didn dare to put down any loving words or my names.. That moment I felt if what the hotel said is true and I might causing trouble for her. Destroying any healthy relationship she could have is last thing in my mind... Anyway I decided to be abit "political" on my card msg) I hardly get any zz since that nite and feeling troubled.. Somemore I kept getting distracted during work as well - Which is very anormal for me.. I've somehow learnt the capabilities to focus on anything whatever happens to my personal life.. These few days I just simply can't focus.. Kept making mistake and going for smoke break.. Think I going to become a chain smoker soon... :(

Still we do get to chat every night via msn but really felt I'm just a normal frz to her.. Our chat somehow let one to another and I decided to spell out everything.. I know I'm no angel but I've been very good to her!!.. Definitely don't deserve such treatment from her.. Anyway she finally spill the pills and explain her feeling again. Lastly promised me she will open her door to me in future.. We shall see..

Now still at this freaking country and 1 thing I kinda sure - I really tone down alot.. Not even thinking of looking for flings or company for past few days.. Man, is this what parents always said "You are finally growing up son!!"?????