Should I or should I not?

Lately I been at 2 minds for almost everything.. 1st thing 1st.. I been wanting to update my blog for very long time.. However on another hand - I'm afraid she somehow see this blog.. (For whatever reason - I'm not going to disclose here.. Sad right?)

2nd - I was actually given a chance to get laid with some new ladies I met recently.. Again thoughts of doing a betrayal somehow stop me from going anywhere further..

Just couple weeks ago, gotto know a L thru frz and I could see she's all over me.. (Even my guy frz can tell).. Instantly asked for my fb and insist of taking pic on very night.. However she just not my type! opps.. :P

Then again last weekend gotto know K.. (She half jap and for some reason, I always get lucky with jap lol) Again I could sense that I'm for home run.. She's definitely doable but somehow - Something is pulling me back.. Is that a sign of finally growing up? lol

Netherless - I know my beastie mindset can't hold much longer.. It just waiting to release and sooner or later it's going to be.. The thoughts of just making love with 1 woman for rest of my life somehow scare me..

I need some help!!!!