What's wrong with me?

I know I've havent been updating very regularly.. Primarily because due to work and personal stuffs are taking most of the time.

Any quick updates on what happens to me lately.. Based on what I recorded - I was kinda together with a Jap babes for a while - Kiyoe. But eventually when she came to Singapore.. I was kinda in relationship with K again.. Yes we end up making out with one another but somehow our 2nd burst of fire didn last long..

She did something stupid behind me.. Which not in the mood to talk abt it now.. Anyway after that - I will once a while get lucky with a gal on & off..

However recently I realised something - I could have get to lay way more gals than I actually had.. What do i mean by that? Well just like NW - I could have bedded her but I did not. That's bcos I feel she will be very sticky to me..

Then talk abt yest @ fly - 1st L was flirting with me but somehow i refused to return favour.. Then later that nite, JT hangout with me and again she was too flirting and touchy with me. Even F was commenting that I refused to hug her..

Really not sure why and how come I started to react that way.. I know I wan sex but I scare to go into it.. Can someone explains why?